Swimming In Shadows
A Gene Keys Event at COSM Temple, Wappinger Falls, NY
I loved being at the Gene Keys event at the Center of Sacred Mirrors in the NY woods.
Attended a Gene Keys retreat summer, 2015 on how to release your Inner Radiance through liberating the Wounded Healer. (can see image of the Wounded Healer in video link in this paragraph) Immersed myself in the ever changing frequency sound stream of transmutation.
Recorded as part of the Chapel of Sacred Mirrors Retreat
Your Radiance is the quality of consciousness that is always wishing to break through like a wave inside you. Contemplate the Siddhi of your Radiance and ponder what might be preventing such a breakthrough for you.
Being in this intimate group for three days, brought up my shadow of mediocrity in my radiance gene key, (gift is style and higher spiritual gift is exquisiteness) for clearing, uncorked intensity and impatience permeated expectations of myself, and of others.
Entheon means a place to discover the Creator within.
Entheon, Sanctuary of Visionary Art at CoSM, transforms a three-story carriage house into a stunning 12,000 square foot exhibition of the finest original works of Visionary Art, precious paintings, drawings, sculpture and moving image, that resonates with the highest states of consciousness. Inside Entheon, the Chapel of Sacred Mirrors features a cathedral-esque latticework ceiling, ten archangels, and a quartz crystal moat that surrounds each of the twenty-one Sacred Mirrors.
Lay down with a group mostly half my age,
I sense they easily let go and melt into being more open and relaxed because they didn’t move a muscle, completely calm and still
My body is stiff, too rigid to soften into tight tension along my spine, I listen to the impulse to move, open and let go more deeply inside. A visceral gripping inside my body muscles alerted me I was in the shadow frequency.
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During lunch, my shadow of reaction becomes activated again, I find myself holding my breath and tensing my body by a brilliant man who couldn’t or wouldn’t stop chattering.
Claus, a genius scientist from Canada, verbally expressing his upset to anyone who would listen that no one could hear him, I could see why.
His and my reactions, led to verbal shadow boxing between us.
Sighed and let go of trying to make things better for him.
Left the dining area to sit in nature.
Breathed into my heart and power centers for more clarity from the inside out.
After this pause for about five minutes, it dawned on me we were both in reaction
which is the shadow of my evolution key.
The breakthrough of this awareness, leads me back again to my Radiance Key.
My radiance is what keeps me healthy and radiantly alive which embodies my creative spirit and intuitive trust in the natural creative impulse of life which shatters societal norms through joy and enthusiasm instead of anger and resentment.
Klaus finds me and we sit in silence in the sunshine on the grass after the retreat.
I agree to look for a place to swim along nearby lake beyond the Falls.
As we drive together to the swimming spot Klaus has heard about, the clouds rise up and cover the sun beginning to set along the horizon. Clustering above our heads, a quiet descends upon us.
Klaus’ nonstop chatter begins to annoy me as the driver, I feel to focus on the road. I finally stop the car and ask him if we could drive the rest of the way in silence. He reacted to me attempting to control his behavior.
A younger person who was in my back seat, reminded us both of what Richard mentioned in the workshop:
“The shadow frequency band is something we attune to like you tune into a radio.”
We walk through the trees in reverent silence down to the shore, letting go,
late summer sun reflects upon deep dark green moss blanketing the water.
Klaus and I smile at each other and surrender to the beauty and serenity of the lake as our bodies enter the slimy water.
We begin to tune into the fluidity of the water element, and the shadow dissolves into the gift with no conscious effort on our part.
Every shadow contains a gift.
Step into muck, determined to free myself of these clouds and shadows,
I swim through the moss, dense green sheen reflected in the sunlight.
Breathe in the algae floating on top of the lake,
a smell a sweetness in the blooms wafts through my nose.
Each stroke of my arms releases a fragrance of late summer.
I sink softly, gently into the inner awareness that my suffering could be the source of my salvation.
Fresh blossoms exude within the slimy bio muck,
like my shadows, the density around the edges of my being,
washed clean as I move and surrender to the flow of the water
and my body moving together as one.
This is lovely and inspiring Grace...
Appreciate the reminder about frequency and how we can attune! Beautiful how you moved out of dissonance and into flow! Amazing how changing our inner can change our experience with others, isn't it? Always such a journey! Thanks for sharing yours!!! :)